Thursday, August 25, 2016

Quarter-life crisis.

Since I turned 27, every year, a few months before my birthday, which is in October, has been very difficult for me. I am now turning 32 and this year has been the worst.

Even though I have the most supportive husband, beautiful kids, a stable job, our own house and a car I still feel that there is something missing in my life. I am sad most of the time and been crying whenever I am alone. May it be in the car, in the office or at the mall. My life has been full of ups and downs. Name it and I’ve been through it (I think). But what’s most stressing me out is that not a lot of people, including the ones closest to me, choose to understand or even ask how I am doing. People tend to judge you without even knowing what you are going through. When they see you happy and enjoying yourself they will jump to conclusion that you are already a bad person. That you are not taking care of your family. That you do not love your kids anymore. Which is totally not true. It is sometimes wrong that you show people that you are happy although deep inside you are partly broken.

I am a strong person. I’ve always been the life of the party. I love to go out and be with my family and friends. But whatever it is that I am going through hinders me from being myself.

When I am at home, I just love to stay in the room and be alone and cry with no reason at all. During the weekends, I love to be outside partying the whole night. I want to be surrounded with people younger than me. I want to do the things young people are doing these days. I envy their youngness (if there is such a word). I envy their generation (not that I am not proud to be a 90’s kid because I love it, see the confusion?).

I lived a happy life. I had a pretty decent childhood. We may not be well off before but we had almost everything that is necessary to live. I was fed, housed, loved and educated.

At 19, I was a stow-away. I went with my, now, husband and lived separately from my parents. I was an undergrad. We started really rough and poor since he was still studying then. I had to work nightshifts, full-time at a very young age. Now that I am older, I just suddenly realized that I was not able to enjoy my younger years. I was not able to party, do overnights with friends, drink till dawn and travel. Not that I am regretting what I have now because I am really grateful and thankful for all of it but I just feel so incomplete and unhappy. And this is REAL. TRUE.

I fear getting older. I fear DEATH. I fear the future. Not sure why or if I should be. I made some research about what I’ve been going though and I found out that there is such a condition so most likely I am not the only one experiencing this.

Gerascophobia is an abnormal or persistent fear of growing old or ageing.[1] Gerascophobia is a clinical phobia generally classified under specific phobias, fears of a single specific panic trigger. Gerascophobia may be based on anxieties of being left alone, without resources and incapable of caring for oneself,[2] Sufferers may be young and healthy.
Symptoms include the fear of the future and the fear of needing to rely on others to do daily functions. Many also fear they will not play an active role in society when they get older.”

Although, the reasons stated are not the same reasons that I have, this sums up what I have been feeling.

It’s hard. Really hard. As I get very emotional easily. I get very irritated easily. I feel very alone easily.

I did this writing to express myself and to be able to tell people that this kind of thing is serious. I do not know if this is depression already or maybe part of my post-partum. Not sure until when I will be feeling this way. But I hope that I’ll be back to my jolly self soon.

I hate it when people tell me that this is just all in my mind and that I can easily get through this. They keep on telling me to just look at my blessings. Who doesn't want to do that? Who wants to be lonely? Who wants to cry all the time? Again, I am really proud of myself for what I have achieved. I am happy with what I have. But family and status are not my issue. This is something rooting from deep inside of me.

We all go through different issues and struggles. We have different strengths and weaknesses. And everyone has a different way of dealing with stress.

I am sure that people will still not understand this. That they will raise an eyebrow when they read this. But this is me saying that I don’t care. I will get through this at my own pace. I will not rush. I am intelligent and I know that I will be able to surpass this. But for now, I will just try to enjoy life as much as I can. With the support of my husband who loves me so much.

I hope this helps others in some ways. Let’s do this together.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Kimukatsu: My Katsu of choice

Decided to go a little Japanese for my husband's birthday and we wanted to eat somewhere that we have never eaten before. Good thing we were not wrong in opting to go to Kimukatsu. It is a quaint little restaurant in High Street. Unlike the other famous Katsu house, this restaurant is simpler and smaller.

They offer 25 layers of mille-feuille Katsu in multiple flavors.

The ambiance is nice and warm. And the food choices are really mouthwatering.

The servers are welcoming and always have a smile on their faces.

Ebi Fry- 1pc- 130

Scallop Fry- 1pc- 120

Cheese Katsu Set- 390

Salmon Set- 490

Katsu sets also come with unlimited rice, miso soup and shredded cabbage.

I strongly suggest this restaurant. The value of your money will be surpassed by the taste of their food. Good job!

G/F Bonifacio High Street, Bldg 7, 7th AveFort Bonifacio, Taguig(02) 809-0333

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Valentine's Day 2016 the Mona Lisa way

I don't usually get excited about Valentine's day. But, this year it was different. We had our reservation in place a few weeks ahead of time because we know finding a good restaurant may give us a  hard time. We have also planned to invite my parents and our children on this date.

The mall was full-packed this day and most of the restaurants are fully-booked as well. So, good thing we made our plans already.

We ate at Mona Lisa Ristorante which is located at the 5th floor, SM Aura.

Risotto Mona Lisa- Solo 370
This is a good risotto. Even my 2-yr old daughter loved it.

Canneolloni ai Calabrese- Grande 600
Filetto di Manzo alla Griglia- 1200
This one's a bit underwhelming. The price doesn't really justify the serving and the taste.

This was my second time in this restaurant and I think that the first time was better.

Friday, February 12, 2016

Ikkoryu Fukuoka Ramen- a taste of Japan

I'm back! And this post is worth the wait.

Ikkoryu Fukuoka has branches around the Metro. I've been hearing rave reviews about it and so we tried it to see if it really is worth the time, money and effort.

Coming in to the restaurant itself is very relaxing, The ambiance is cool and the staff are very welcoming. There are not too many people when we went there so the serving of our orders didn't take long which makes me even happier.

Ikkoryu dumplings- 5pcs- 180
 The best dumplings I've had so far. It is sweet and spicy at the same time.

Ajitama Tonkotsu- 380
 Their ramen is good for one person only, unlike in other ramen houses which can be shared. This one in particular is nice. But, it is not that creamy and savory.

Aburi Chashu Tonkotsu- 400
However, this one is really for the win. It is creamy, savory and saucy all at the same time. I have tasted a lot of ramens from different Ramen houses and I can say that this is the best I've had so far.

This experience had me thinking of blogging again. And I am hoping to be of help to people who want to try different dishes but are adamant to. Enjoy!

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Sagada: A step closer to heaven

I have been waiting for months to go on a much needed vacation. The past few months have been very tiring and hectic. Joggling between work and family is not an easy task. Most especially now that my daughter's birthday is just around the corner. Looking for the best party coordinator, catering, photographer and videographer, photobooth and lechon supplier have been mind-boggling. Scouting for the best venue is also one thing. Not to mention going to Divisoria to buy some stuff for the party as well. A lot of things have been running in my mind lately that I just said to myself, "I had it. I want to leave the city,,, NOW.".

Good thing that I, my husband, sisters and friends have something planned by the end of March. SAGADA! This place has been haunting my mind. I have always wanted to go to this place and experience the cold weather. Going through the Banaue Rice Terraces has been in my dreams since I can't remember when. So this is it! Sagada here we come!

Day 1: Met with the tour people in Trinoma. We will be sharing the van with 2 more couples.

Left Trinoma at 10pm. I slept almost immediately after the van left the meeting place since I was not able to sleep properly after my shift in the morning. We had 2 stop-overs. One was in a gas station somewhere in NLEX and then the second was in Cabanatuan. After at least 8 hours we were finally in Banaue.

We stopped to eat in a small eatery. I cannot remember the name or if it has any. But it was almost at the top of the Rice Terraces. I do not recommend the food here. It was the typical "Silugan" that we have in Manila. We ordered Porksilog (P125) and Longsilog (P100). It was expensive. The food was dry and tasteless. However, the view in this place is gorgeous. You get to see the Terraces and walk on it. I almost cried after being able to step on the sides of the Terraces itself. It was such a very nice feeling.

After eating, we went straight to Sagada Homestay, which served as our home for 3 days, to fix ourselves and get ready for our first activity, Caving.

Sumaguing Cave is famous for its spelunking adventure. The way down to the cave was a little steep and muddy but we were able to manage it without tripping or falling down. :)

You will  be welcomed by a few wood coffins at the entrance of the cave.

According to the tour guide, it will be a 4-hour trek to the other end of the cave.

Going through the cave itself is a such a total workout! For someone like me who doesn't exert effort in too much moving, it was a real test. Climbing walls, passing through small holes and hallways, and sliding down slippery steps that were at least 10ft in height were some of the things that we had to go through inside. Although, it may sound so exhilarating, we still enjoyed it. The view inside the cave was unbelievable. The rock formations were such a sight to be seen. It was also cold inside the cave so we didn't feel the tiredness as much (it was so cold that there is smoke coming out of our mouth). The only thing that set me back in this experience is that while we were already on our way out, the feces of the bats were all over the place. It was hard not to hold on to rocks as you are walking so we had no choice but to touch it. You can also smell the foul odor of it. It was a bit gross. But all in all, it was such an unforgettable experience.

After the cave experience, we went back to the Inn to fix ourselves and get ready for dinner as we were all starving. We went for a walk and had a few options in mind. We went to Log Cabin, Yoghurt House and Lemon Pie but they were all closed (most establishments close at 8pm). Right beside Lemon Pie is Sagada Brew. Since we were all tired and hungry, we walked in and settled. And it was the best decision that we made! Their food are all delicious and had generous serving. Rice meals are priced at P200 (with salad and dessert) and pasta is at P150. I also loved their hot choco. The owner was also very polite and attentive.

Hot Choco (P100)
Rosemary Peppered Chicken (P200)
Pork Hamonado (P200)
Day 2: Call time was 7am. We were scheduled to go to Bomod-Ok Falls and the Hanging Coffins.

We had our breakfast at the Inn's Eatery and it was better than the one that we had in Banaue :). At P130 for a chicken, rice and salad, it was reasonable for me.

To go to the Bomod-Ok falls, we need to pass through the Rice Terraces itself. It is at the back of a small mountain right across the Terraces. According to our tour guide, Aly, it is only a 2km hike. Again, the way to the falls was steep and muddy.

Going to the falls, we passed by a small community of Sagada natives. I tried to envision myself living there but I already find it hard to see. These people need to walk up and down the mountain to go to school, to buy food, to get stuff, etc. It was such a very simple community.

Finally, we were able to see the falls after at least 2 hours of walking, but it was all worth it.

However, if you plan to go to the falls and not to dip into the water, I think it will be a big waste of time and effort. The trip going there is not easy. So, if you will just go there to have your pictures taken please think twice. If the way going to the falls was hard, the way back is a lot harder, waaaay harder. We had to go through at least 1000 steps of stairs and 1000 more steps of hoping into stones and mud. It was hard, really hard. Did I also mention that it was freaking hot that day? It was so hot that our skin was burned after. My whole body went sore after that. All we wanted was just to go back to the Inn and have some rest. The pain was excruciating. It took us another 2 painful hours to go back.

Before going back to the Inn, we decided to eat our lunch first because we were already starving after the trip to the falls. This time we were able to go to the Lemon Pie House first to buy a box of lemon pie then to Yoghurt House for our lunch.

I really don't know why Yoghurt house always pops up in blogs and on the internet of restaurants to try in Sagada. Their service was beyond poor. The small guy who attends to customers is so arrogant. They also do not serve free water to customers! Their food is tasteless and expensive! I really have nothing good to say about this restaurant. Even their yoghurt is so sour that my face cannot be painted anymore after one try. This restaurant is now on the top of my list of not to recommend restos.

After lunch, we went back to the Inn to freshen up and to get ready to go to the Hanging Coffins. I was personally excited to go to this one because I have always been amazed of why and how they buried their loved ones like this.

Going to the Hanging Coffins, you need to pass through a regular cemetery. It was creepy but at the same time very solemn and peaceful.

After a few minutes of walking, you will finally be able to see the hanging coffins itself. But to see them clearly and closer, you have to go down the mountain again.

It was such a serene moment. Right this time, I think I already felt why they did it.

It was also about to rain so we went down quickly. I realized one thing, that lightning and thunder in this place is more frightening. It seems like it is just there and ready to strike you. And then I thought, that maybe I am really just a few steps away from heaven.

Again, going up is another story...

We went back to the Inn after this so we can rest. From morning until afternoon of walking is definitely not a joke. I am proud of myself that I was able to survive it :).

We ate the Lemon Pie for merienda. And again, I was disappointed. This is one of the must-try's in Sagada according to a lot of people and it has been compared to the Calamansi Muffin of Boracay but we didn't enjoy it. It was so sour and is nothing like my favorite calamansi muffin.

For dinner, we decided to go back to Sagada Brew. And again, it was yummy :).

Chicken Roulade (P200)

Had a room-service massage to lessen my pain. Then went to sleep because our call time the next day was 530am.

The early morning of our third day was picturesque. The fog covered the mountains and the air was cold.

Left Sagada with a smile on my face and a once empty space in my heart now filled with joy. Finally, it was time to go home.

While we were on our way to Baguio, I just witnessed the most beautiful sunrise that I have seen, so far. It was majestic. No words can explain how I felt when I saw it.

Sagada, for me, is another home. If given the chance to go back, I would. I would love to roam around more and try other things. I would love to go food hunting in remote areas to try their delicacies. I would love to know more about their culture and history. Next time, I will spend more time in this place. A place I am now claiming as home.

Thanks to Budget Local Tours for fixing everything for us. :)

Friday, October 11, 2013

AirAsia Zest flies from Manila "Right way to Fly"

Finally, the long wait is over. One of the most prestigious airline is now easily available for all travel lovers right here in the metro. AirAsia, which has now partnered with Zest, may now take you to your desired destination at affordable prices. AirAsia Zest, has taken flights to heights that we cannot imagine.

Here are the destinations that you can choose from when you plan your vacation with AirAsia Zest:

Kalibo (Boracay)
Puerto Princesa
Cagayan De Oro

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Kota Kinabalu, Malaysia
Shanghai, China
Incheon, South Korea

As for me, here are the 3 destinations that I've always dreamt of going:

1. Kota Kinabalu, Malaysia- since I was young, I've always seen pictures of the beaches in this place. Although, I know that we also have nice beaches here, the ambience and culture will be very much different from ours so I would love to go here with my family.

2. Incheon, South Korea- the color and the upbeat culture of South Korea never fails to amuse and amaze me. We've seen a lot of modern things that's are coming from this place. And that is the reason why I'd love to go here.

3. Puerto Princesa, Palawan- I've been to a lot of local destinations but not Puerto Princesa. I have heard a lot of good things about the place so why not go here and spend some time with my loved ones while roaming around this beautiful city. And besides, who wouldn't want to see the Underground River, eh?

Indeed, AirAsia Zest is the right way to fly.

So, what are you waiting for? Travel in the Philippines or travel in Asia with AirAsia.

Monday, June 17, 2013

Black Canyon Coffee: Not your ordinary coffee shop

A new coffee shop was introduced last Saturday. They already have a branch open in Sm Southmall, but still, this brand is just new to my ears. But since I am a coffee lover, I went there so I can try it out.

The owner and bosses of this new coffee shop in McKinley Hill in Taguig were present during the launch. They were very welcoming and were courteous enough to answer all the questions coming from the people present during the event.

Black Canyon Coffee is slowly moving up to be known by a lot of not just coffee lovers but Thai food lovers as well. They serve iced and frappe Thai coffee's that I enjoyed. Some of their coffee's have ice creams at the top which is definitely new and is a must-try! They also serve Pad Thai which is a very well-known Thai cuisine. I am not a Thai food lover but I really enjoyed this one!

For people who are already getting bored with coffee shops that serve coffee and pastries, you SHOULD definitely go to Black Canyon Coffee and try the Thai food choices in their menu.

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